Spice Girls Melanie Chisholm (better known as Mel C or Sporty Spice) has penned a new memoir, The Sporty One: My Life as a Spice GirlIn which she writes about sexual assault by a massage therapist in Istanbul, Turkey, the night before the group’s first live performance in the 90s.
“It happened to me the night before my first Spice Girls live performance. And we’d never done a full-length concert before, so, obviously, we’d be practicing for weeks — costume fitting, makeup, hair — everything. was leading me to the pinnacle of everything I ever wanted to do and ever wanted to be,” Chisholm, now 48, said on Tuesday’s episode when asked about the incident. how to fail with elizabeth day podcast. “And what inspires me is being a performer on stage, so here we were on the eve of the first Spice Girls show, so I treat myself to a massage at the hotel. And what happened to me , I got buried immediately, because there were other things to focus on. You know, I didn’t want to make a fuss, but I didn’t even have time to deal with it. And because I didn’t deal with it at the time, I realized that I let him be buried for years and years and years.”
She explained that the attack was not initially part of her book, but she felt she had to share it in order to deal with what happened.
“When I was writing the book, it came to me in a dream, or I woke up and it was in my mind. And I was like, ‘Oh my god, I haven’t even thought about doing that. The book ,'” Chisholm said. “Then, of course, I had to think, ‘Well, do I want to? Do I want to reveal it?’ And I just thought, ‘Actually, I think it’s really important for me to say this and finally deal with it and process it.
So it was “cathartic” for her, but the singer also wanted to help others who had experienced something similar.
“I think in a version of sexual assault, it’s a milder version, you know, but I felt violated. I felt very vulnerable. I felt embarrassed, you know, and then I felt uncertain, ‘Have I got this right, but what’s going on?'” Chisholm said. “I was in an environment where you take off your clothes with this professional person. So there were a lot of thoughts and feelings, and I thought, you know what I want to talk about, because it affected me “
As the host of the show said, many sexual assault victims start questioning themselves after the assault.
Chisholm linked it to the fact that she was a people pleaser.
“Everyone knows better than me. What if I’m wrong? I don’t want to look stupid. I don’t want to be stupid,” Chisholm said as she thought at the time. “As I have searched for my soulmate, as I have grown old and have tried to overcome many things in it… Trust your instincts. There is only one person on this planet who knows that.” What’s best for you, and that’s you. Who knows what’s right for you. Even though it wasn’t that person’s intention, it made you feel that way. And you have to tell them.”
The singer is expected to reunite with all four of her former bandmates for a documentary next year.